and the hammer of time smashes the body like glass in a paper bag.

Notable Events

Oh My goodness. it has been so long
- (Since last I’ve seen my son lost to this monster, to the man behind the slaughter da na na na nana)
What the fuck did even happen? I’vE been lost in an illness and biology test haze
Ya lol I got sick as darn that weekend. Could not speak a word for 2 days.
CM came over while I was sick and we watched the 1st act of Arcane S2. I made some reaction cards which I will compile below.
Went to Eureka Springs on Monday of fall break with CM:
- Visited Thornecrown Chapel- it was kinda lame actually. Like it was pretty and all but architecturally not very impressive. I could have done that. (Me when I am the type of guy to say “I could have done that” at every piece of art.)
- Went up Razorback tower. It was very beautiful. The mountains in the distance.
- Bought mom a Rat ornament. Super excited to give it to her.
- Ate at this little Indian place and we discussed whether or not pretending Santa is real is immoral. I think it is because it’s literally lying to your child for years and years and in my case, holding the “naughty/nice” over your kid’s head. CM thinks it’s not immoral.
- Went and got our auras read. We got like the exact same fucking colors. Here’s mine:
  - Top (Indigo): Your mental state is intuitive. You have a higher vision.
  - Left (Indigo): The energy flowing into your field is visionary and intuitive.
  - Center (Violet): Your essence is wise, spiritual, and in tune with yourself.
  - Right (Indigo): Others experience your sensitivity and idealism.
  - Bottom (Violet): You get your grounding from a higher non-earthly dimension.
- The only difference is that CM had like top violet instead of indigo. Lame as hell. Obviously the whole thing was BS, but I would have liked interesting BS at least. I genuinely don’t think I would actually have any of this “violet” crap in my aura. I think my aura would be giant and red and evil looking.
- There were also a lot of dark spots on mine. Way more than CM. There was a huge one over my crotch. Image below.
- Also my pussy chakra and my brain chakra were blocked. The puss makes sense because you would be hard pressed to find someone more sexually inhibited than I, and the lady said I thunk too much. So. Image below as well. I think it was bull fucking shit. So did CM but she said she felt like the stuff applied to her. Like whatever dude I think my aura is weird and fucked up.
- Than we went to Judge Roy Bean’s historical photography and dressed up in victorian clothes and pretended to kill each other with rifles and sabers. Sick.
- Then we walked around the shops ***WHICH AT THIS POINT WERE ALL CLOSED*** and got each other the worst looking weird sodas we could find. She got me “Pimple” (marshmallow) and I got her Buffalo wing because I wanted that shit to *hurt*. And yes it was dogshit terrible.
- Then we went to the Crescent Hotel and waited for our ghost tour and played speed and whist.
- The ghost tour was pretty okay. I guess I wish I was more freaked out. It was just about this guy who used to run the place like a fake hospital and melt his patient with chemicals and then some dead girl and then a pervert named michael. And then they let us in the meat locker that the hospital used to store bodies and it was awesome in there.
- Then we left and immediately got pulled over for speeding. First time getting pulled over everrrrrrr!!!!! :3
- And then we got home and listened to 2020 indie sad music. Shoutout Corpse Husband for making the worst music ever. So bad i have got to memorize the whole thing.
- The next day I studied for ten and a half hours for biology, then woke up the next morning (today) and studied for another hour and a half. This is all for biology. I think it paid off.
Maybe I’m a Cringefail Loserfail Yaoipilled Girlfail (*YES* I typed that, 25 year old me *KILL YOURSELF*!!!) but having a fake boyfriend in my head is so much better than these fucking bozos.
OMG bitch I’m sitting curled up in a chair at starbucks during autumn drinking an iced apple crisp espresso and blogging… I am *THE* moment. I am so Carrie SATC. I am so city girl chic.
- Never mind the 83 degrees.
Oh yeah Charlie Kirk got shot like a while ago. DGAF.
Audio that has been stuck in my head: “***WE ARE GOING TO GO BACK IN TIME TO THE FIRST THANKSGIVING TO GET TURKEY OFF THE MENU. THAT’S RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!! WE ARE GOING TO GO BACK IN TIME TO THE FIRST THANKSGIVING TO GET TURKEY OFF THE MENU!!!!!!!***
If I don’t get into a relationship with a bisexual man who doesn’t want me and is in love with someone else but is also in love with me soon I will nothing. Because that isn’t going to happen but oh boy will I nothing.
Just pointing it out – the last 3 girls I talked to about their boyfriends broke up with them almost immediately after. Dey call me Da Relationship Guru.
My mom hated the rat ornament I bought her. Which comes as a massive surprise.
The bottom half of my hair is kind of pink. Um. Not much else to say on that.
I made red curry chicken pot pie *YUMMY*.